Hello to all Shinhwa fans and to those who want to remain their fans after reading this message!!!
I just wanted to tell you that I really met SHINHWA here in Germany. I really did and I can show you my pictures with them if you don't believe me.
But don't be jealous or angry with me, because meeting SHINHWA was no dream for me. It was more a nightmare. I cannot really explain to you how bad and sad I feel. I was so happy and lucky to meet them here in Germany but this happiness was torn into pieces when I got to know how much SHINHWA care about their fans.
I am still very speechless and I wished I had never gone there to see them at Frankfort Airport. Nothing was like I thought before. When I got there I was at the wrong terminal. After about 2 hours I decided to go to Terminal 2, because I thought that I missed them already.
But afterall I was very lucky and when I got there I saw Eric at first who was coming back from the check-in counter. I passed the other people who were standing there and I was so nervous and I was looking for the other SHINHWA members, so I suddenly turned to the right side and I saw Junjin and Hyesung while they were looking for a lavatory. I just saw their back but I recognized them very quickly.
I was there with my friend - so I asked her what to do. I asked her if we should go to meet Eric first or if we should wait for Junjin and Hyesung until they come back from the lavatory.
To let you all know it will be better to tell you first that I WAS a fan of Junjin, so I decided to wait for Junjin and Hyesung until they come out. So we waited and Junjin came out first. My God all my body was shaking because I was so nervous but finally I went in his direction and he looked at me. So I said to him: ''Hi, you are Park Junjin from SHINHWA, right?'' and he just said ''Yeah.'' and he tried to go away so I got quickly next to him and told him that I am a fan of him for a very long time and that he is my favorite and that I never had the chance to meet him before.
So he stopped again and I asked him if I can take a picture of him and he said ''Yeah.'' again and I think he was very surprised that I knew his name. So I looked in my bag for my camera, but Junjin did not wait. He left me where I was standing and he went outside the airport.
I was very surprised in that moment, because I did not know what was happening and I felt disappointed because HE -my favorite- left me standing there without saying anything.
So I really was paralysed when he left. A few seconds later Hyesung passed me and my friend and I could only say very quiet and soft ''Hyesung'' but of course he did not hear me.
As I was standing there I felt that two things must be wrong. I felt like ten years passed me and all my power, the fire inside me left my soul and my body. My friend was talking to me but I did not know what she was saying. As soon as I got back my senses I asked her if I should go outside to talk to them again or just leave it like that. But of course I wanted to see Junjin again. So I decided to go outside.
And guess what I saw when I came out??? The scene was like that:
Hyesung and Junjin standing and Minwoo and Eric were nearly sitting on the ground and ALL FOUR members of SHINHWA were SMOKING!!! Yes they were really SMOKING. They always say in interviews that they stopped smoking because it is bad for their voice but they still smoke. They make non-smoking songs and then they smoke themself.
I was really surprised because of this. As they saw me and my friend Eric and Minwoo and Hyesung looked at us but Junjin turned a little away. So this time I asked them again if I can take a picture of them, because I am a fan and I like them, but they said nothing, so I looked at Hyesung and my God - a few seconds later I would have started crying like an idiot. So Hyesung said something to Junjin in korean and finally Hyesung said: ''Yes, OK, have a picture'' (or something like that)
So I took my camera and wanted to make the picture when Hyesung said that I should make the picture with him and Junjin. I did not want to stay near to Junjin anymore, because he really broke my heart and I mean it true.
That is why I wanted to stay only next to Hyesung, but suddenly they both said: ''Stay in the middle''. Thus I gave my camera to my friend and got in the middle. Junjin and Hyesung took another breath of their cigarrettes and threw them away. So we took the picture. I said to them ''Thank you for the picture.'' but Eric and Minwoo stood up for going inside and Hyesung just looked once more and Junjiin turned his back to me and my friend. But then I couldn't resist anymore and I said loudly: ''I thought you were much nicer but you are not.'' But I am not sure if they understood, because when I talked to Junjin before I felt as if he does not understand english, but at least Eric understood me because he looked back to me.
I was so angry and I wanted to get away from them so I took my friend by her arm and we went inside. At first I wanted to go back to Terminal 1, take my car and drive home, but suddenly I saw Dongwan and Andy. They just finished their baggage check-in and they got to their group. The other 4 members of SHINHWA were with the group too. There were two elder man, three young girls (I will tell you about them later) and I think an elderly woman.
My friend really suggested me to leave now and not to meet Andy and Dongwan anymore, because she knew that I would start to cry if they would be vain and stuck-up like the others.
But when I got a fan of SHINHWA Dongwan was the one I liked for a very long time the most, then he got my number 2, because I started liking Junjin more and more. But now I know that I made a mistake and Dongwan should have remained my number 1 forever. If he would have been my number one I would not have gone to meet Junjin and nobody would have broken my heart.
I think you can already imagine what I did. Yes, I went round the others to the place where Dongwan was staying and talking to the elder man and Dongwan was putting something in his bag when I just put together all my courage that was left and I touched his shoulder with my hand and said ''Excuse me.'' Dongwan was surprised and looked at me and said: ''Yes.'' He looked much more friendly and he was the only one (I think Andy too) who did not wear sunglasses inside the airport building.
As he was watching me I asked him if I can take a picture of him, but he misunderstood me, took my camera and asked me if he should take a picture of me and my friend but I said ''no'' and told him that I would like to have a picture of me and him. So he looked more surprised and smiled and said ''Oh, OK.'' and I said to him ''you are Kim Dongwan, right?'' and he said ''yes, you know me?'' and I said ''yes, from Shinhwa and he smiled.
So he gave his bigger bag to the elder man and said ''Let's go'', I think. But I asked him where, because in that moment I saw Junjin with one of the young girls and I felt like running away. But Dongwan said ''Just here.'' and he gave me back my camera and I gave it to my friend. So I stood next to Dongwan and he put his arm round my back and placed his left hand on my left shoulder. I was really surprised that he did that, althought when I took the picture with Hyesung and Junjin they had their hands on my back.
But the ''little hug'' with Dongwan was much nicer and I thought ''At least one of the SHINHWA members likes his their fans and is friendly too.'' My friend did the picture and while she was giving me the camera back Dongwan took his bag from the man and asked me if I am german. And I said ''yes'' (actually I am german-asian). I think he asked because nearly all germans have blond hair or mostly blue or green eyes, but I have dark brown hair and brown eyes.
Then I asked Dongwan if I can have his autograph, but he did not understand me again so he came closer with his head and said ''what?''. And I said :''your signature'' and I pretended as if I am writing something. Then he understood and he started laughing, because I think he felt a little ashamed because he did not understand me and he said ''yes, sure''. Then one of the elder man said something to Dongwan and he said something to him. I think the man told him to do it quick whatever he will do.
Then I took out a writing-pad of my purse/bag and I was looking for a picture of Dongwan I put in it. I was still very nervous and my hands were trembling, so that Dongwan took my writing-pad and was looking in it like I did before. Then suddenly I remembered that I had a picture of Junjin in it too and a page on which I wrote that I love Junjin. I didn't want that Dongwan sees it. So I said ''wait'' to Dongwan and tried to get my writing-pad back from him, but he still looked in it and I was trying to snatch it away from him so it teared on the top.
I think Dongwan said ''sorry'' but then I found his picture gave it to him and when he saw it he was very pleased because he liked it - I could see it on his face and he said something like ''ah, wa, my picture?'' Then he wrote his autograph on the picture and I watched how he writes it. Suddenly my friend asked me something and I turned to her but in the same moment Dongwan asked me ''what is your name?'' and I told him. He laughed again and asked ''how do you spell?'' and I spelled it to him but in the end he wrote it wrong. What a pity!(I think SHINHWA have to visit an english course) He also wrote on the picture ''nice to meet you'' and a word in korean which means ''go''.
Then Dongwan gave all things back to me (picture with autograph, writing-pad, pen) but in that moment I saw Junjin again and he was doing ''some close things'' with one of the korean girls. They did not kiss but it seems to me that she is his girlfriend. I know that Dongwan said something to me again but I do not remember what but finally I looked to Dongwan again and he said something like ''have to go now...maybe we meet again'' and I said ''nice to meet you and have a nice journey''. Then we said ''bye'' and they all left. I looked after them for a while and I think the three girls where girlfriends of Junjin, Minwoo and Eric. Just to tell you...Minwoo's girl was the most beautiful one and Junjin's girl was like him...STUCK-UP!!! Then it came to my mind ''let's follow them'' and we really did that like detectives. In the passenger area where they have to show their passports I saw Minwoo standing with his girl and Junjin standing there with his girl but I did not really see the third girl again. Then I watched Dongwan again but after some time I could not see them anymore because they went inside towards their gate/platform.
All I know is that SHINHWA are not the way they present themself on TV and in video clips we can see in the internet. I think they are only friendly to their fans if there is a camera near to them. They just act as if they are nice but they are not. I am not talking about Dongwan because he was very nice to me in contrary to the other ones and I am not including Andy, because I did not have the chance to talk to him so I do not know how he would have been. I am really angry about Junjin,Eric,Minwoo and Hyesung, because they are so bad guys and they do not imagine that if they had not their fans they wouldn't have gone so far and they would not be so popular and rich today. They should really think about that, because if they keep on doing this - I mean being so vain and bad to their fans they will lose us.
I think I will not buy SHINHWA's 8th album anymore because I feel disappointed with them and I think I will only buy Dongwan's album if he makes a solo album. Well...I should not talk like that anymore, because I know you all really love/like SHINHWA and I did so too, but they are responsible for that I do not like them anymore. I only like Dongwan and maybe Andy. Next time I get the chance to meet SHINHWA I will kick them except Dongwan and Andy, so they will know what a fan mean to them.
Actually they also lie to us when they say that they do not smoke and when they say they have no girlfriends but they have.
They also look a little different than on their pictures in the internet. Hyesung does not have bright skin and Minwoo is very small. I did not know before that he is that small. So I think I will need a lot of time to get over this meeting with SHINHWA. I just suggest them that they will not be like that again with any other person, because it really hurts. I still feel so bad and today is Saturday 27th May and I met them on Tuesday 23rd May. I have to rave my mind now and have to decide if I remain their fan or not. It is a hard decision for me and I am not sure how I will work it out. I just hope that somebody of you will not meet them like that...hope they will be friendly when you meet them. For SHINHWA (I mean JJ,MW,Eric and HS) it only counts if you look like Miss Universe otherwise they will not talk to you.
So well that is all for now or forever. I am not sure if you will see me in Junjin's forum again.
I'll miss your nice short messages. And I will always remember the nice time when I loved SHINHWA. But now I only have Dongwan, sweet memories and a broken heart.
Let me know what you have to say about my meeting with SHINHWA. Here is my email: poongh@hotmail.com and my real name is Poonam not ''bwo ana'' like Dongwan wrote it. ^^
Goodbye and have a nice time supporting SHINHWA.
Poo ^^ once ChoongJae198
P.S.: SHINHWA should remember my words and maybe I will a song for them like EMINEM always does when he wants to tell someone how he fells/thinks about that person.
I think you know what I am trying to say.
P.P.S.: ''ONCE IN A LIFETIME'' I had to get to know how they really are.
P.S.3:To NOFREAK: sorry that I did not ask Dongwan for his email address, but my brain did not work on Tuesday. I forgot all I ever did. Thanks to JUNJIN who let me feel so miserable.
P.S.4: My song about SHINHWA will be released soon. But I think only for you, because it would be difficult to let SHINHWA hear it.